A sex twisted mind is born

The second nanny was nothing like the first, although she was also called Mia. She was older then the first one, completely different physical shape, brunette also, curly hair and glasses. She was a very humble and loving person. 

By that time Daren had already developed bad personality traits. His parent felt guilty for the time they spent working so they allowed him to do what he wanted. He became selfish, self-centered and manipulative. He would play with the guilt his parents felt to make them do what he wanted. He was very stubborn and could be at times even aggressive. When Mia would giving bath to go to bed he would kick her and scream, and the poor soul would say nothing. she would cope with the situation. Sometimes Daren´s mom would come and beat him for doing this. And this was an extreme: either he could do whatever he wanted or in a moment of wrath his mother would beat him. 

As I said before, she had a depression but didn´t know at that time and the changes of humor where frequent and strong. The way she dealt with Daren was not proper at times. With 7 years old, Daren would at time still taking bath with his mother. He can remember of seeing her naked on the tube, siting facing him. He remembers of rubbing his feet on her vagina. She would tell him to not do that but that´s all. And this was no ordinary kid. This was a child that had already been initiated in sex. Who had already done oral sex to a woman at the age of 7 and who was "not" traumatized but it. He enjoyed it, he enjoyed sex. taking bath with his mother twisted even more his view of sex. I started to see women as just objects for having sexual pleasure.

Time passed by and the nanny met another Portuguese guy from her village, who was also working in Switzerland. they start dating and eventually move in together.

This time Daren´s parents didn´t substitute the nanny. Daren was about 8 years old and started to be alone at home. He would go to school on foot, alone. Would come back home, and sometime lunch, alone - he loved eating ravioli that his mother would let him in a Thermo.

The bible is accurate when it says in Proverbs 22:15 "Foolishness is bound up to the heart of the boy"... 

Left alone with those bad personality traits, just mad him do all sorts of stupid thing, in his own words. He robed his parents, to buy firework and jelly candy, more then once. He later admitted that to his parents though. would go with the other kids to empty houses, to destroy private property. And this may seem something "normal" for a kid, but remember he was only 8 years old....

Still that was not the worse. His twister view of sex was pumping. he wanted to feel again the same pleasure he felt with his nanny.

One day he found a porn magazine in his father side bed table. Its was a porn comic book, but not a light thing. It involved bondage, masochism and other perverted and twisted sex practices. One of the images he can´t forget is that of a woman cutting the penis of a man, in a car a throwing it out the window. Imagine the impact in that child´s mind on seeing that! His father must have discovered that he found the magazine because he never saw it again. His mind was now even more twisted. he started to invite girls to his house along  with other friends, to games involving sex. 

At one time a girl, German, blond, around 8 years old as well his neighbor was at his place, with his and  some friends, they where all playing computer games and she wanted to play as well. So he told her: "let touch you vagina and I will let you play". She opened up  her pants he pulled them down as well as the panties, and started to rub her vagina, having her against the wall, while the other kids where playing video games. He did just as he pleased and in the end said to her: " I will not let you play anyway". 

Another time, he invited that German girl and a German boy to his house. Again they started to touch the girl, telling her to get naked, pulling their penis out for her to touch, but this time his mother got home earlier and nothing more happened. The strange thing in this situation is that his mother didn´t ask what where they doing! She just told them to go to their houses. Daren had never thought about this before - the girl could have told her parents, he could have been in serous troubles, although being just boy! And what about the girl? What happened to her? For sure she was also damaged due to what he did to her!

Still Daren needed to feel more sexual excitement. The girl was not accepting to go to his house again ( I wonder why...) So he and that German friend who was younger then him, decided to give pleasure to themselves. It was Daren´s first and unique homosexual experience. His friend laid on the couch, naked, turned upside, and Daren was on top of him, facing him, and making his penis touching his friends penis. They didn´t feel the pleasure they thought they would feel, and never did it again.

But the twisted desire for sex, wanting to get it by any means and worse than that, not even thinking that there would be consequences for his actions, where  preparing the path for he becoming a sociopath.